14
Forever my favourite photo.11.05am.
8th July 2009.
Wednesday.
Mood: Forgetful.
I forgot about '14' until I plonked myself down in front of the laptop and drowned myself in cheesy 90s songs.
If this is confusing to you, then this is not for you.
To you that is for you, you would still be confused anyway. Haha.
Because
14 isn't supposed to be where you should start. But it does not matter who I direct this post to, because it applies just as much to you (yes you), you (the other yous) and me. Its up to you to figure out which you are you=)
As much as you like to see the big picture, sometimes looking at details can be oddly fulfilling. Paying attention is something we are not good at. Girls are better at it, though solely being better does not mean we have perfected the skills of noticing the little nuances around us.
There is this anime show I watched before. Its called 'Azumanga Daioh!', possibly the quirkest most plotless anime I have set eyes on.
They dedicated a whole episode to 'hiccups'. Not metaphorical hiccups, but the literal ones. :D Yes, those hickhick sounds, or as Wikipedia puts it: the spasmodic contraction of the diaphragm that repeats several times per minute.
At a glance, that 25-minute episode seems like the most wasted 25 minutes ever, and you would probably be using the next 23 hours and 35minutes to figure out why did you even bother watching a 25 minute episode about hiccups. =)
My point here is, don't we all treat the hiccups (ooh, being metaphorical now) of everyday doldrums in the same fashion? After awhile, we get bored. We linger around to see if the hiccups would turn into a fullblown asthma attack. [I'm sorry but I have a knack at coming up with the weirdest and lousiest analogies ever:D ]When it does not (it almost always never), we leave.
I don't want that to happen.
And I do things like these: making confusing posts, staying up till the wee hours to draw a friend's birthday card,
helping a boyfriend choose a present for his girlfriend [heh you two so owe me] etc, to make sure I'm interesting enough, caring enough, novel enough and worth it for my loved ones to stay for. Its hard to perk up at the little changes everyday, especially after some particularly asshole biology and chem and math double periods. But I think its needed, to make sure everything stays fresh and different. I sound like I'm giving advices for sex, my god.
Its really comforting to have friends who fret when you're 0.1% less perky than normal. And they go all the way to make sure you revert that 0.1% back to perkiness. They sit down beside you with a worried look and ask ala ChonFan: ZOMOK NI?
I like that.
People who notice, who care about the details. And when you care about details, well, it would be hard for the big picture not to fall into place now, no? [This does not apply to my-full-stops-not-nice-i-tear-the-whole-report-do-it-over-again OCD. Thats just pushing it a little bit too far]
I think that is all I have to write for now.
All I have to say is:
Good luck. Waiiittttt.
And
Keep reading.
Love,
Ida